sitting infront of this computer everynight playing games...watching movies....studying...playing guitar...sounds alright? i guess so but sometimes it just sucks there are times where the mind races like i dont know but it just goes fast and you think of everything that has gone wrong and cant help but want to go back and fix those things but at the same point if they were to be fixed would we be where we are today?    no one knows that answer...

 

still though the worst is sitting here and seeing everything unfold and the worst thing to watch is people being too stuborn (i cant spell deal with it) there are many things to hold a grudge over just too bad some people cant let things go and look at the big picture compared to taking an easy way out or a tempary fix....what can you do...then you start are you even needed anymore sure you are by the ones that care for you but what about the ones that you care for but they dont care for you anymore...dont want to talk to you but there is always days that pass where you feel something missing...being in a place away from home

 

more random thoughts...just for people that hold grudges...fuck off...grow up...thats a little blunt but seriously look at the big picture there is more to life...